A friend of mine, who has Lupus, just cut her hair. I didn't want ask if it was because of the Lupus but most likely it was. Sometimes Lupus can cause your hair to fall out. A couple of years ago, I had to shave my hair down to a light Cesar. I was embarrassed, ashamed, I felt as if my womanhood was completely gone. I cried and boy did I cry. Just to see clumps of my hair falling out into my hands and on to the shower floor. I wore wigs, scarves, and...(wow Lupus fog), and other hair paraphernalia. Anyways,after a while I learned the true meaning of beauty. My boyfriend at the time helped me through my inner battle and I gained a little confidence. But most importantly, I had to find my confidence in myself. It took a while, but I walked around with my short hair with no problem. I learned how to love me and my disease.
Lupus has a habit of bringing people down. There are so many crippling things that makes us lupies self conscious about ourselves and feel "different" or "abnormal." That's bull! For 3 years I walked around like a penguin because of my avascular necrosis of my hip. I had rashes develop on my skin. I had weight fluctuations due to my beautiful nightmare drug prednisone. I didn't care. People would always ask me "Kenya, you have all this stuff going on. How do you stay so confident and positive?" I am strong. We are strong. We have an illness and we fight through it! I tell myself everyday that I am beautiful and this disease will NOT bring me down.
If you have any self conscious issues and would like to discuss them, please feel free to comment.
If you are interested in an online Lupus magazine please visit http://www.thelupusmagazine.com/. They will give advice on different types of issues involving lupus.
I love your post Kenya. Keep it up! Your a beautiful woman
ReplyDeleteWell said Kenya. You are definitely one of God's miracles! God never gives us more than we can bear and he chose u to manifest his glory in. I love you girl and i truly admire you.
ReplyDeleteI sit here and I read your blogs and I'm truly inspired. I got sick at 19 with cancer and lost all my hair and was in-patient for 6 months. Those 6 months were the hardest times of my life. However you have such a positive attitude in the face of a chronic illness. You still manage to go to school,be a full-time mom, and make us all laugh on facebook with your posts. You definitely are a great role model for your girls. Sometimes I feel when unfortunate things happen to us it only makes us stronger. Keep doing what you're doing, you're truly a star!
ReplyDeleteSorry Kenya face22cute is me Erin..I used my aim name
ReplyDeleteOooh Lovie! I did cut my hair due to lupus. It kept coming out, the texture changes. I had two identical bald spots on either side of my temple....totally looked like I had a mohawk! Lol.
ReplyDeleteI cut my hair the first time a few months back due to lupus, and in september I completely shaved it off. I cried thee entire time, but when it was all done I felt completely different. New. Warrior-like. Because it didn't kill me. I did it because so many of us with illnesses like lupus, fibro, or cancer experience the same battles.
I am not my hair! And lupus will NEVER hold me down. *kiss kiss* I love you sis, stay strong!
Thanks guys!!! Just have to be positive. Erin I'm so sorry to here that!!! Tiffany you still look good. Ahmed thanks growl, chaste yes its truly
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